this is my fate

dari kecik lagi, selalu cakap kt umi & ayah, nak fly nak fly nak sambung belajar luar negara

mula-mula taknak masuk sbp, tp bila fikir peluang nk fly, hati ni relakan juga

bila sampai sekolah menengah, setiap kali malas nk belajar, ingat, eh nk fly results mesti gempak

struggle bagai nak rak dengan rakan-rakan seperjuangan

ingat lagi betapa excited nya nak apply scholarship, nak prepare untuk interview in english

sampaikan text dengan almaz pun nak guna englsih :)

nak pergi interview pulak, sanggup naik bas pergi johor

usaha demi usaha. tangga dipanjat satu demi satu.

alhamdulillah. i got the scholarship. god give me a chance to further my studies in united state (i/allah)

tapi. tapi.

seriously, the life i live right now, is not what i ever thought in my life.

i miss my high school's time. i miss the time me and my gf's breaking school rules.

i miss the time where i can laugh and have all fun like other teenagers.

i miss the time when i still can smile even though i'm stressed.

i hate living in the world which people are so intelligent until they dont want to have fun.

i hate living with people who always think they are the best.

i hate living in the world where CGPA, books and results are everything for you.

i hate living in the loveli-less and friendship-less world.

ya allah. kalau ini lah yang terbaik untuk ku, kuatkan lah hati ini untuk menelan semuanya.